Permagrin

September 22, 2014 § Leave a comment

I’m just SO happy all the time now; it never stops.

Alive

September 3, 2014 § Leave a comment

Life with you, wasn’t life.

How lovely it is to be alive.

The Prettiest Song

August 20, 2014 § Leave a comment

I touch the keys of the piano, and play you out of my head.

Cherry On Top

July 18, 2014 § 1 Comment

When you have everything you want.
When you want for nothing,
you choose only cherries for your top.

I don’t want a dark sky. You’re a dark sky.
I don’t choose you—
I choose a bright red tasty cherry that I can bite my bright into.

*  *  *  *  *

I’m going to sleep you off.

this

June 30, 2014 § Leave a comment

You don’t know how good this feels—this

living without you.

You don’t know how good this feels.

Becoming

June 29, 2014 § Leave a comment

I invented myself through your absence. If you had been here, I’m not sure I could have been the girl I invented, but I imagine I would have been very  pretty, very real, very happy and very loved.

But God said no. God said, she needs to be everything she is not, everything I created her not to be before she can become everything I created her to be. 

So that’s what I do. Be everything and everyone I’m not, ’til I have the guts to be the STORM.

 

*  *  *  *  *

What’s the storm?

Where you tear your heart out your chest for all the world to see without forgiveness, without escape. 

It smells like rain.

My hearts beating so fast. 

 

never again

June 26, 2014 § 3 Comments

I’m glad you never talked to me again. I mean… not glad happy glad, but like, sad glad. Sad glad you answered all my questions with your silent reply.

I don’t miss you.
yes I do—I miss you.
but not sad miss you…like happy miss you, like happy I’m missing someone instead of loving someone who couldn’t answer all my questions with a live reply.

What I meant to say between my overuse of ‘like’ and my lack of proper punctuation and dragged out sentences is that…I’m happy you’re gone in the saddest way possible.

gosh you hurt.
do I hurt too?

no?

ok.

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